Monday, November 2, 2020

When you have to do it afraid

 

Maybe you have prayed, “Thy will be done,” and really meant it.

 

Or maybe you’ve prayed, “Lord, send me.”

 

Or maybe, like Moses, you’ve wailed, “Oh, Lord, please send someone else” (Exodus 4:13).

 

If you’re like me, you jot down important thoughts—sermon notes, quotations, Bible verses, big questions, big answers, the stuff you want to long remember—and tuck them into your Bible.

 

Two old Bibles I’ve been using since the mid-1980s are so full of such notes that neither one can come even close to closing flat (see the picture below).

 

If you and I take time to look over those old notes, sometimes they can be life-changing. They can make a profound difference in the direction our lives take.

 

For example, last week I told you that not long after I published Grandma’s Letters from Africa, I was thumbing through the Bible I used during the era my husband and I were applying to Wycliffe Bible Translators.  

 

In that Bible, I found an old yellow sticky-note with questions I’d asked myself about the radical demands of discipleship Jesus spoke of in Matthew 8:22. I’d written, “Do you consider yourself a disciple? What radical demands is God making of you? Are you carrying them out? Are you willing to meet His radical demands?

 

Let me introduce you to Leanna, a dear young lady I met in August 1995. She’s one of those rare, choice saints who take such questions seriously.

 

She was (and still is) beautiful inside and out—a gentle soul. Shy. Soft-spoken.

 

My husband, Dave, and I visited with Leanna while the three of us ate together around an office lunch table in Nairobi, Kenya. To my surprise, she was on her way to Zaire (now called Democratic Republic of Congo, or DRC) to teach at a school for missionaries’ kids (MKs).

 

People had been talking a lot about Zaire. It no longer qualified as a “developing country.” It was an un-developing country. 

 

Currency was devaluing at an alarming rate. People piled stacks of paper money on a counter to pay for a restaurant meal. It took a wheel barrel to transport monthly rent to the landlord.

 

Decreasing numbers of telephone lines worked. Hundreds—even thousands—of kilometers of road surfaces were turning into bumpy, dusty tracks (or muddy, depending on the season).

 

Teachers and law enforcement personnel hadn’t received paychecks for months on end.

 

Zaire was not a stable country in which to live and work. (And little did we know then that conditions would worsen, many thousands of people would die, and Leanna and colleagues would have to be evacuated.)

 

I thought of all those things, and more, while I watched Leanna across the lunch table on that day in Nairobi. “She must be one strong young lady,I said to myself.

 

I couldn’t imagine what kind of faith she hadfaith to leave her home in Oregon, leave friends, family, and her country, and travel all alone to a mission school in a remote, challenging place, where she knew no one.

 

I told myself Leanna must have embraced a passion, a faith so intense that it dimmed any thoughts of fear, that it wiped out the pain of leaving home.

 

But I was wrong. 

 

Leanna knew fear. She felt pain. But she left home and moved to Zaire anyway

 

And I was right. Leanna was and is one strong lady, a lady with the kind of faith I can barely imagine.

 

Elizabeth Elliot spoke of a person like Leanna when she said, 

 

"Sometimes when we are called to obey, 

the fear does not subside 

and we are expected to move against fear. 

One must choose to do it afraid."

 

Looking across the lunch table at Leanna that day, I never could have guessed she’d looked for a closed door to keep her at home in Oregon.

 

Come back next week 

so I can introduce you to this amazing woman.

 




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